I’m trying to keep myself busy today, I have much on my mind and I can’t say it all, or show it all, so today I will: -Finish the essay for my Civic Engagement Scholarship for Drew U. -Find activities and events for my club. -Start my EBay page and list all the yugioh cards I want to sell. -Read 100 pages of my book! (It would be nice to) -Do homework (egh) -Search in Spark...
Finally taking the Nervous System test for my Physiology class tomorrow. Im excited about it, I been studying and reading the book, hopefully I can get a perfect. I been bragging to everyone that I will so that adds pressure to me so I can do it.
Everything is unbearable right now, I feel lost, empty, forgotten. I feel depressed, I don’t eat well, I don’t feel like doing anything that I enjoyed, I can’t sleep well, I have constant nightmares, I don’t feel like being around people, I just want to stay in bed all day. Just a few more months.
Lately I’ve had so much on my mind I can’t focus on anything at all. My only medicine is music, loud, aggressive music that doesn’t let you process what’s really going on.